It’s grey in Richmond. It’s been raining, cold, overcast, or all of the above for so long now that it’s hard to imagine that this exact landscape will regularly be sunny, warm and welcoming in just a few months’ time.
I flip through my Moleskine journal and laugh at the stuff I’ve jotted down in the last 12 months. It’s impossible to commit everything that happens in a year to memory, but keeping a journal helps me recall more than I would otherwise. For better or for worse.
I don’t know what I’ll do for dinner. I have stew in the fridge at home but a Cuban sandwich from Kuba Kuba sounds so much tastier.
I remember when my freshman year girlfriend Rachel suggested we go get Kuba Kuba one night in 2010. I said I thought I didn’t like Cuban food. There is absolutely no reason I should remember her suggestion from that night. I’m a regular at Kuba Kuba now. I’m nearly a decade late, but, Rachel, thank you for the suggestion.
2018 is over now. 2018 demanded a lot of patience from me. It was also the year I learned the delight of an afternoon espresso. Thanks, 2018.
This year I had to nurse a broken bone back to health. I had to learn how to recollect confidence after bottoming out. I had to learn that sometimes you’re just nervous about being nervous even though there’s nothing to be nervous about, and ALL OF THAT makes yours nervous. And I had to learn that that feeling will pass. I had to learn that more patience will be demanded of me going forward.
I need to get up and go home. My coffee’s gone cold and I’m starving. But I just don’t feel like packing up, putting on my raincoat and getting all damp. Some days I enjoy walking in the rain. Today ain’t one of those days.
The following are things that I wrote in 2018, followed by other things that I read or watched/listened to that I greatly enjoyed.
“Order for pickup please. One Cuban sandwich, extra plantains. Name is Mike. Thanks.”
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